God keeps taking me back

These are 2 of my favorite verses. There is so much strength and power in these words!

Psalm 27, verse 1:

The Lord is my light and my salvation–whom shall I fear?

The Lord is the stronghold of my life–of whom shall I be afraid?

Psalm 27, verse 3: 

Though an army besiege me, my heart will not fear;

though war break out against me, even then will I be confident.

 

I have been silent on this blog for a while. I’ve had long pauses between posts before, many times for lack of discipline.

But this time is different. I have suffered a severe emotional blow, and I am heartbroken. I’m dealing with a situation that I never wanted to have to deal with. I can’t go into detail. What I can tell you is that I have been shaken to my core.

Every time I’ve read these verses in the past, I have always loved them. To tell you the truth, I think they’re pretty bad-ass!:)

But now that war has broken out against me, I need this Scripture and the Lord more than ever.

God has made bearable the unbearable for me. He has done for me what I cannot do for myself. He has lifted me up from deep waters of devastation. I have felt only a portion of the pain dealt me, because He has kept me from hitting the bottom.

He has remained faithful to me, even as I have tried to find other ways to escape this pain. I have neglected my Bible, instead pouring myself into distractions.

But His concern and His care for me hasn’t wavered. He doesn’t hold my faults against me. He still loves me even when I have pushed Him away.

I don’t know how to end this post. Words are failing me, but God never has.