Romans 7:15 For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate. [ESV Bible]

I struggle to do things I know are right. I struggle not to do things I know are wrong.┬áDoing what I don’t want to reminds me of how fallible I am, and how vulnerable I am to temptation.

My faults are clear to me–how much I can write in this blog may change over time. I will get braver, I’ll start to become more transparent.

A few of my faults…I have a bit of a lazy bone in me. I can be very productive and active, but I can also sit on the couch watching TV with the best of them. I can be impatient and irritable.

Even though I love God and I trust Him, sometimes I turn to other activities to get through the days. I shop too much. I haven’t gotten back to regular workouts, and I’m eating Lays barbecue chips as I write.:)

One good thing that I don’t do as often as I intend to is to write in this blog. I feel like I’ve let some people down, who at some times might have come to this website to read something new and found nothing.

Sometimes I don’t write posts because I’m just plainly undisciplined. Sometimes it’s because my depression is getting ugly. But I do care about this blog, and I do care about the people who take the time to read it.

My motivation for writing this blog has always been the same–to introduce people to God. I don’t run ads, I don’t hyperlink everything. I keep it stripped down for a few reasons. God made it clear to me that this site cannot be used for profit. I don’t run ads, and it works out well, because my pages load quickly. And I keep it simple because I think that being clear spoken and honest is the best I can do for the people who do read these entries.

I am sorry for my long absences. I am at a point in my life where God is helping me to recover and rebuild. I’ve lost some ground in my life in a few different ways, but God’s love for me hasn’t changed, it’s unconditional, and I know I can rely on Him to see who I really am.

One of my favorite Scriptures in times like these is Proverbs 24:16–For though the righteous fall seven times, they rise again, but the wicked stumble when calamity strikes. [NIV Bible]

I’m not righteous because of what I do. I’m righteous because of what I believe. I believe God is Who He says He is. I believe that the Bible is the Word of God, and I believe what is written in it.

We are made righteous by God, we can’t do it ourselves. Jesus took our sins upon Him when He was crucified. He died in our place, so that we can be forgiven for our sins. Believing in Jesus makes us righteous before God.

Jesus said in John 6:29, “The work of God is this: to believe in the One He has sent.” [NIV Bible]

Are you ready to believe God? Are you ready to be loved unconditionally, to have your sins forgiven, to be taken care of and lifted up by God? Don’t delay starting your relationship with God! Start reading the Bible, it’s the key to knowing God. Read the Bible on your cell phone and computer. Buy a Bible, make it yours, highlight it, write in it, wear out the pages!! Let God lift you back up when you fall!